Nazaj doma. Dom za Andyja in otroke zagotovo. Kot ponavadi se sama pocutim malo oddaljena in z distanco. Da ne spadam cisto v Ameriko. V resnici veliki del mojega srca ostaja doma. In vem da naslednji teden bo lazje, ker sem bom vrnila v rutino dnevnega zivljenja z sluzbo, vrtcem, kuhanjem. Lazje nato pozabim, odrinem hrepenenje in se ukvarjam z zivljenjem tu. Trenutno sem se doma in lahko malo zalujem. Pocasi pospravljam kovcke. Hodim po opravkih. Poslusam veliko Adele, da mi je se malo bolj vse skupaj zalostno. Si postavljam oltarje s spomini. Kamne iz morja. Kuham jedi katere vem, da jih tudi mama in sestra.
Cez naslednje dni upam, da napisem se objave za preostale dni dopusta in z naslednjim tednom se vrnem k normalnim objavam.
Back at home. Home for Andy and kids for sure. As always I feel far and with distance. That I do not belong in the States completely. A lot of my heart is always staying home. I know it will be easier next week when I will return to a normal routine of days. Work, daycare, dinners. It is easier to forget, push away yearnings and focus on life here.
Currently I am still at home and mourning. I am slowly unpacking. Running errands. I am listening to a lot of Adele which is making everything even more sad. I am building shrines. Rocks from the coast. I am cooking dishes that I know my mom and sister are making too.
Over the next few days I hope to catch up on posts from vacation and with next week I will return to normal posting.
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Jason & I were talking about you & Andy a couple days ago. We were wondering how the rest of your vacation had gone and if you were yet "home". Glad you made it back safe & sound. Hopefully you can return to "normal" quickly. I'm sure it is hard, I'd hate to be that far away from so many loved ones, too. Look forward to the stories about your trip!
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